Nadia D'Anvers (part 4)

{The writing seems incoherent at times, random thoughts falling on the same page. Every now and then a trail of ink runs down the page as if she fell unconscious while writing.}

I don't know how long I've been here... it could be hours, it could be days. The pain is all I know it is all I am...

I remember the whips... and then I rested... for how long... but this... this was so painful... I felt as if I would tear in half... when released, I thought I would fall to the ground... but Inquisitor Thal caught me...

When I close my eyes I see so many faces... I didn't let you down father I didn't mean to channel I didn't want it I wanted you at home with mother and I we wanted you here...

I remember the day I saw the Inquisitor question Aermannes... I remember hearing Aermannes say something and the Inquisitor becoming outraged... at me... at him... what did he say? I remember the day by the river when he was so nice... he laughed and we had both fallen in the river... where is he now I wonder... I still have the ring he gave me...

Don't leave me... I'll be good... I won't talk to them anymore... I'll stay at the camp and do my chores like I was told... don't make me go away... mister Lent please...

Mother did you see me? I made the little birdie all better... it can fly again... I helped it... just like you taught me...

Where are you going? Why are you leaving me? Don't go mother... don't leave me alone... I'll be good... I won't be bad... I promise... I'll make you proud mother...

I saw something in Inquisitor Thal's eyes today that I never thought I'd see... regret. Has he never had to question someone he knew before... the Children around Four Kings pretty much raised me, they helped Lent look after me... and now they will burn me. It weighs heavily on him, I can see it.

~ Nadia